last few days didn't blog.... haix.... maybe wasn't in the mood ba..... sorry about it.....

As what i am gOing to say will hurt some people but then i don think i will care about it le....

Days are passing by, my heart slowly harden by itself, my blood, getting colder and colder as the days went by.... i don even know when will i become a senseless creature on this earth.... maybe people will say that i'm bull shitting... some one might proof u all wrong.... this actually happened yesterday....

"boy, you really wan to PS sini arhx? letting her to go home alone so late at this hour arhx?" my brother frown at mi and said.....

"so??? i tot that u say ur leg is very tired? so faster go home lo...." DotXxx replied as if it was nothing at all...

"but than she is a girl lehx....... you really wan to leave her go home alone arhx? wat if.... wat if she keeping rob or being rape.... won't u feel guilty at all mehx?????" my brother raised his voice a little bit....

"....." DotXxx said nothing.

~~silence~~ ~~silence~~ ~~silence~~

" so????? we are in the bus liao.... nvm la... forget about it...." DotXx calmly replied.

"boy, you cannot like that lo...... you see if u really want to become a bad person, in the future u will become more than a bad person lo..... u muz also do good things sometimes... u know!!!" my brother frowning at me again....

"don u think being a bad person u feel more relaxed????? u don even think to think for the other's people feeling.... juz do wat u feel like.... if u are a gd person.... people take advantage of u... in the end u are in the losing end... some more u have to stress yourself out to find a better solution not to hurt people's feeling... don u think that is so troublesome????" talking nicely back to my brother.... trying to reason out my point of view.....

"i don know why.... i juz sometimes treat people this way.... i only have myself in my own heart... putting myself right in the center of my heart" thoughts that are rising in my heart...

"boy... u are not like last time liao lo...... last time... last time u so understanding always think of people's feeling.... but now u are really very wat lo....." my brother said...

~~ silence~~ ~~silence~~

In my heart i know that i am not the ah fok that everyone knows already.... i know that very clearly..... u guys all can feel it de... i am sure of that.... hey people out there don call mi ah fok liao.... i am not fit for that name already....

now i might still sense some feeling... when watching vcd sometimes still will shed some drops of tears for no reasons..... i really don know when i will become a senseless creature in this world?

i don think i will not hesitate to express my own feeling... i will not..... i will not not even hesitate to say "fan"....

now all i care about, is my brother..... he's the only one i really care about.... i will juz feel bad when everyone are against my brother, i cannot take it.... even a person who is much stronger than me, i will still stand boldly in front of my brother... i don know why i care so much..... i don know why!!!!!! DON GIVE MY BROTHER NICKNAMES ANYMORE...... I DON LIKE IT EVEN I AM NOT THE ONE BEING CALL..... IF YOU ARE THE ONE WHERE PEOPLE MAKE FUN OF U, WAT U ALL WILL DO??????????

that all i wan to say............ haix..... bye guys......