Haix.... Day by day my life is getting more and more restless..... I don even have the feeling to go to school, everyday slept in the morning till late morning than wake up......

Really, my life totally sucks now....... "Friends, is it really a thing that u can trust so such???" i sat down and wonder the whole day......... Sometimes i don even know what i wan? what is the purpose for mi of living? Is so ridiculous enduring all the pain and hardship.....

Why am i so useless i wonder.... I'm too tired to bother things so most of the times i don even care about it....... Why about making yourself more tired??? I don even have a target in life...... Sometimes just wish that i can have a life with no worries for money, relationship, etc Who doesn't wan this kind of life.......
3 years working in Hotel Rendezvous liao, had seen lots of situations...... Got happy de, also same sure got sad de la........

Single is better or Having de other half is better, i graduatly think of this question...... For the answer is had found out i decide to keep it to myself...... Getting emo more and more each day....

Stupid mi, staring at the blank walls and my mind is flashing lots and lots of things........ What is honest???????? What is trust??????? What is lie???????? can someone simplify for mi so that i can think of what she thinks......

Do i really wan to be Ah Fok forever???? Act as nothing happens when he's clearly know what's the situations about? Leting it go? will that be fine? What if my heart soften???? Why am i such a soft hearted guys? Treating ppl good really Help myself???

Think and think and think................... Till he falls down one day...... unable to face the problems he had, unable to get up on his feet again? when is the day coming, this is juz like a feeling that days are not left much for him...... Saying Tc to himself........ HOPE TO SEE U IN HELL ONE DAY, FOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!