Did i really make the right choice? I can say it out loud that i love her deeply don i really can't stand her attitude already... after break off then change the attitude for wat? it's already too late le.. it already too late i say... i believe myself that can get through this thing de.... shui rang you hen duo yi wan ge bu yuan yi but still it's ime to let go.....

Reason breaking up with her is juz it couldn't withstand the attitude no more... i'm really tired..... It wasn't i like people ... It wasn't like this....
Hearing upon that u are alright make mi feel an wei also... at least u are not as stupid as last time... cut urself injured urself.... u have change in this place.....

Carry on with my aimlessly life now..... Do god really exist???? i really ponder.... how do to communicate with him???? how he reply u???? Can he really help u to find the way out???? To mi, it's more like it's a think that make u have self confident in doing ur own things... with much confident u will try and gain the experience......

Someone help mi out instead of god???? cause i juz can't believe that he's around.... I only do things than only benefit mi... those things that doesn't concern about mi, i will totally ignore.... Cause wat i think now is I am the most important, follow by family..... I have change to a guy which doesn't really like to help out at all.... my heart may say help him help him... but my mind is stopping mi watever it could takes.

Really i want to know... who have i become???? my images of my father is slowly disappearing in my life.... I wanted to be like my father so capable, so caring, so helpful... Say really la... how i really wish when i wake up and once again i see my gather and consult him........

Tat all.... back to games. it's so bored.... bored....

single on 22nd March 2008 00.00am...........................................................