life is hard for mi nowadays..... things that i wanna do and i like to do had to think twice....
Thinking back to the past, i regretted hearing mark's advice (former RH staff). i know he mean well....

You shouldn't accept a girl if u don like her..... Getting poorer and crazily thinking about my debts........... argh!!!!! How am i going to return it.... TTS Hospital-$60 bucks, M1-$290.65 bucks, Lloyd- $150 bucks........... I'm so stress out!!!!!! How much i earn is really not enought no matter how much IT JUZ NOT ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *headache*

How come i getting more and more cham.... ITE, i didn't study for my last paper. It's juz only one and the most important of all yet i didn't study, most of the answer is empty.... It's really blank pages.... I think i can't get into poly liao argh!!!!!!!!! haven see Dae de result of Rp.... I don wan to repeat ITE for 1 year!!!! *why my head is getting more and more painful typing all this shit*

My mother had a lot of expectation of mi... Longing for mi to support this tiny Family, I can't even feed myself.... My mother went to temple last time, and i ask her wat happen. she say that the priest told her, i will support her and look after when i go to society to work... She believe that i can... But she didn't know that i really really scare that i can't do it....

Having no Tertiary Cert, how much can i earn? Working at Hotel rendezvous, i had seen people 40+ yrs old earning $1000+ bucks.... It's like shit la.... I'm really worried... wat if my dae can't get into poly and i really had to go to NS already....

Wat will be my life like in future?????????????? I really scare to know the answer...
Wake up in my 30+ and my life is mess up!!!!!!!! I don wan!!!!!!!!!!!!! *i like emo-ing* no but i really scare it happen, Life like a mess, want to buy things no money buy....

Today was a stupid day for me. Doing nothing at home, now it's already 8.30pm i haven even got a single bite from the morning till now.... Don have money don have food... stupid mi!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe i should go for the competiton "survivor" maybe i can win $100k? lol *dreaming again....*

My blog has spider web on it.... long time since i blog..... my entires is pathetic... 2 person de finger and toes all add together... still got left ah... I don wan to live in this type of life...... Let me sleep at night like a normal person!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Or don let mi wake up also can!!!!!!!!!! *headache headache stress stress*

that all i wanna compliant... bye