You are the best that i ever had

I just want to reflect myself...

The word "我" is often found it beside my mouth, i made it such a big deal that i thought that I'm always the center of focus. But in fact, people doesn't really give a damn about me actually.

Thanks to my girlfriend today whom really wake me up. Because I'm so engrossed in telling people what i know, what i want to tell them even thought they are not interested at all. I have failed to observed their expressions.

Just take this recent case, i invited my army friends to my house for a small gathering. I'm thought that I'm the host, i should be entertaining them. but problem is i just kept talking about myself. I'm really very "Jia lat".

Today, just learn from teacher saying that, there are 3 type of worst case scenario. Pardon me if i can't explain it clearly,
1. You know you have done wrong but you still keeps on continuing to do it.
2. You know the things you had done wrong but you still influence your friend to do it with you.
3. The worst of all 3, you don't even know that you have done wrong.

And out of this 3, i possessed all. :( the journey isn't easy at all but one must constantly observed himself what he is doing at all time. Observed the things happening around, people's reaction is very important!!!.

I have too much fault in me! I have alot to brush up. I really need to have "依六想" otherwise i will never be able to change.

I pray that i will be able to do it not to let down of myself, and also to the people i love whom shows me so much of support. Hope that i will be able to cultivate a correct attitude and mentality so that i can provide a safe and stable shelter for them.