Today i saw lot of tkd friends..... haix.... they were discuss about the schedule for the next 3 months training... I had really drifted apart from them... from Tkd... haix... just one stupid agreement end mi up in this situation.... Am i pushing the blame to others i wondered....Nowadays, i been lying to a lot a lot of people to avoid myself getting scolded or watever..... I may looked as if i don care... but somethings are not.... *i really don care for relationship*...

What is Taekwondo??? Taekwondo is a kind of martial art which is specialise on their agility, foot technique, reflexes and the most important factor of learning for all martial arts, which is discipline... If u don have the discipline, forget about martial arts... many tot they are mature enough to handle things well but it's all in a mess... for a 17 year old teenage to teach a class of students..... what do u think????

1st factor arises________________________
Students will not listen to you and tend to rebel against you because u cannot control them... as a result, most of the time u spend time on scolding them and punishing them which doesn't help in nowadays... It was just a waste of your time and other student's time....

2nd factor___________________________
What if one of your students got a serious injury, you got to faced the parents of the student and responsible for that incident.... What can a 17 year old boy do, when things happened which is not to be expected by him... How is he going to answer for it....

3rd factor___________________________
When u are the instructor for the class, you got to bare a lot of responsibility in teaching them... You can't even take care of yourself and yet u are teaching people???? what can a 17 year old boy teach? *unless his IQ is above 135 which is consider a genius...

Haix, too many factor to say liao.... this week i had been working in the morning shift...

Tuesday (8th April )
work from 7am to 11pm... one day nearly $100 bucks down in my pocket.... lol

Wednesday (9th April )
7am to 3pm......same goes for Thursday also...

Friday (11th April )
7am to 5pm... Thomas ask mi to work on Sunday 2pm... i feel like working lehx but i promise my brother to bring him to reborn his hair so ya... got to give up the money le....

Tml is Saturday, got ask they all go prawn fishing wahahaha.... So happy

That's all wahaha so looking forward for my pay^^

This was quite a tiring week for mi.... let mi write it out wahahaha

Monday(31st March)
working from 12pm to 7.30pm
nth really happening on that day, after work walk around plaza sing than 10plus went home rot and see vcd....

Tuesday(1st April ) APRIL'S FOOL!!!!
same as usual working from 12pm to 8.15pm
planning to call peolple to prank de but ppl all don have time to talk to mi during the night all of them is working... so didn't prank on any one except hotel de laundry aunty....

Wednesday (2nd April )
same working 12pm to 8.pm
went home and rot...

Thursday (3rd April )
working 12pm to 8.30pm
nothing really happen...

Friday (4th April )
this is the day which is both happy and angry
firstly why i am happy because immediately after work i will be joining Li Han, Junior Shawn, Jeffrene, Juliet, and a couple( Shawn's friends)
I was working from 12pm to 8 pm but i know i can finish work early around at 6.30 so i rush all the way from work till 5.38pm i didn't even go for my break time juz to finish my work and meet up with them... went a call came and say that My brother did not came to work and ask mi wat happen... i don know wat happen so i call my brother why he haven reach till so long (cause he was supposely working at 5pm.. He didn't ans the call so i can't tell wat happen....
The most frustrating was i had to take over my brother jobs and went to set o/c at the building of Great Eastern.. i was so angry la.. it wasn't my job and had to i work till 8.30pm argh!!!!!!!!
Then i took cab to meet they all at nigh safari woot.... it was fun haha... i took photo with shawn i when the photo came out we look like couple la.. cause we wearing the same colour t shirt that we didn't notice it... hhaha we take a lot of candid shots with Jeffrene's phone... haha will get it from her later.... That all for that day...

Saturday (5th April )
working in the morning 7am to 5.30pm and i went to meet Li Han haha, we was planning to find things to do... firstly we went to her friend's de birthday party.. then we are struck at the place planning wat to do next after that we call lot of people to ask them whether wan to go night cycling... all don wan cause all no bicycle... so we go and meet edwin and jackson and we went Orchid Country Club and play pool while waiting for Andy Kan, Li Jie And William (jie's boyfriend).
After that we went to Bishan to catch prawns for 3 hours... i was the first time to catch prawns and I was the first one to catch the prawn it was not very big around 7cm like that... And i was also the first one to catch a bigger prawn which was the size of a full grown lobster.... It has a pair of pincer which u got to pull it off if not when u pull back to the net it will cut it... so many first time happen that day. I also had the experience how to catch a prawn... you juz got to be patient... i saw one pro guy every 3 to 5 min he sure got one prawn... *clap*
He's the one to teach mi to be very observant of the float... haha i wanna go again..... haha anyone interested call mi along go bishan catch prawns? In the end of the 3 hours session its around 5am we BBQ it and i ate the biggest which i had caught.

Sunday (today )
slept till 6pm because i was so tired..... hmmm but today just wasn't my day...
Tat's all..

i like no body juz to fake nia............haha

Fu*k la.... What the hell... All these funny kind of excuses u also can use,.... WHY WAN TO MAKE MI SO PEH CHEY... KELVIN MI AND SINI DE PROBLEM U FU*KING CARE SO MUCH FOR WAT... KEEP ASKING SEAN TO CALL MY BROTHER TO ASK MI ON MY PHONE AND CONTACT SI NI.......... HEY.... KEL ARE U TOO FREE TO BE SO 3 8 MA? TOO FREE GO FIND BETTER THING TO DO LA.......

WHAT A FUCKING DAY.... ...

BREAK MEAN BREAK LA... DAMN FUCKING DU LAN...................

Nothing to blog about la... Trying my best to get back to my life last time... Going to Taekwondo lo at Hougang... weeee.............. Gtg bye bye^^
JY JY....

Did i really make the right choice? I can say it out loud that i love her deeply don i really can't stand her attitude already... after break off then change the attitude for wat? it's already too late le.. it already too late i say... i believe myself that can get through this thing de.... shui rang you hen duo yi wan ge bu yuan yi but still it's ime to let go.....

Reason breaking up with her is juz it couldn't withstand the attitude no more... i'm really tired..... It wasn't i like people ... It wasn't like this....
Hearing upon that u are alright make mi feel an wei also... at least u are not as stupid as last time... cut urself injured urself.... u have change in this place.....

Carry on with my aimlessly life now..... Do god really exist???? i really ponder.... how do to communicate with him???? how he reply u???? Can he really help u to find the way out???? To mi, it's more like it's a think that make u have self confident in doing ur own things... with much confident u will try and gain the experience......

Someone help mi out instead of god???? cause i juz can't believe that he's around.... I only do things than only benefit mi... those things that doesn't concern about mi, i will totally ignore.... Cause wat i think now is I am the most important, follow by family..... I have change to a guy which doesn't really like to help out at all.... my heart may say help him help him... but my mind is stopping mi watever it could takes.

Really i want to know... who have i become???? my images of my father is slowly disappearing in my life.... I wanted to be like my father so capable, so caring, so helpful... Say really la... how i really wish when i wake up and once again i see my gather and consult him........

Tat all.... back to games. it's so bored.... bored....

single on 22nd March 2008 00.00am...........................................................

life is hard for mi nowadays..... things that i wanna do and i like to do had to think twice....
Thinking back to the past, i regretted hearing mark's advice (former RH staff). i know he mean well....

You shouldn't accept a girl if u don like her..... Getting poorer and crazily thinking about my debts........... argh!!!!! How am i going to return it.... TTS Hospital-$60 bucks, M1-$290.65 bucks, Lloyd- $150 bucks........... I'm so stress out!!!!!! How much i earn is really not enought no matter how much IT JUZ NOT ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *headache*

How come i getting more and more cham.... ITE, i didn't study for my last paper. It's juz only one and the most important of all yet i didn't study, most of the answer is empty.... It's really blank pages.... I think i can't get into poly liao argh!!!!!!!!! haven see Dae de result of Rp.... I don wan to repeat ITE for 1 year!!!! *why my head is getting more and more painful typing all this shit*

My mother had a lot of expectation of mi... Longing for mi to support this tiny Family, I can't even feed myself.... My mother went to temple last time, and i ask her wat happen. she say that the priest told her, i will support her and look after when i go to society to work... She believe that i can... But she didn't know that i really really scare that i can't do it....

Having no Tertiary Cert, how much can i earn? Working at Hotel rendezvous, i had seen people 40+ yrs old earning $1000+ bucks.... It's like shit la.... I'm really worried... wat if my dae can't get into poly and i really had to go to NS already....

Wat will be my life like in future?????????????? I really scare to know the answer...
Wake up in my 30+ and my life is mess up!!!!!!!! I don wan!!!!!!!!!!!!! *i like emo-ing* no but i really scare it happen, Life like a mess, want to buy things no money buy....

Today was a stupid day for me. Doing nothing at home, now it's already 8.30pm i haven even got a single bite from the morning till now.... Don have money don have food... stupid mi!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe i should go for the competiton "survivor" maybe i can win $100k? lol *dreaming again....*

My blog has spider web on it.... long time since i blog..... my entires is pathetic... 2 person de finger and toes all add together... still got left ah... I don wan to live in this type of life...... Let me sleep at night like a normal person!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Or don let mi wake up also can!!!!!!!!!! *headache headache stress stress*

that all i wanna compliant... bye